Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Just a Little of Me

I’m officially over the mid twentys and definitely feel a little torn after this Birthday. I ‘m not quite sure whether I feel old or young. Most days I don’t feel like I’m old enough to be a wife, a mother, and paying bills and taking care of things like  shots, memorizing the family’s social security numbers, folding laundry and organizing house.  Other days I feel like I’m old. Those are the days where I have to take care of EVERYTHING, the days where the kids overwhelm  me to a point where I want to just cry,  and the days where there are bills we can’t pay.  I guess that comes with adulthood , the good , the bad and the ugly. However, I wouldn’t change any of the days I’ve had in the past year and all the 25 years before because everything I’ve been through has taught me who I am, and what I am capable of. Here is my compilation of what I know about the past 26 years of MY life. If you don’t know me too well, this might shed some light …haha.
Top Ten Pet Peeves for 26 years
1.       Loud eaters
2.        Civilians who wear any piece of a real military uniform
3.        Bad parents  which include ( diaper only children in public, smoking next to your baby/child,  having babies without being able to afford them(I overheard a couple arguing about how they couldn’t afford enough diapers for the week or food),  soda in baby bottles, etc.)… I will always believe people should have to qualify for parenting. Being able to have a baby does not a parent make
4.        People with nice cars, that they don’t clean
5.       People who ask questions during movies instead of actually watching for the answers
6.       Know it alls, I HATE when people offer unsolicited advice
7.       People that are rude to public service employees i.e. waiters, customer service people, Baristas, etc. Think about how you’d want to be treated if you were on the other side of the counter
8.       Sloppy people. Cleaning up after yourself is not hard, just takes a few more minutes.
9.       Copying, I’ve always been told to take it as flattery. I really have never been able to.When people copy me it makes me CRAZY!!
10.   People who seek out praise or attention  when it’s not being freely offered their direction
Top Ten Life lessons(thus far)
1.       Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder. What is beautiful to me isn’t to everyone else.
2.       The best lessons learned, are some of the hardest things you experience and that hurt you the most to go through or overcome
3.       Everything really, really, really happens for a reason.
4.       Motherhood is the hardest, most stressful,  most overwhelming,most beautiful, and rewarding experience.
5.       Love is really all about a little give and take, and ALWAYS takes work.
6.       If you don’t have your integrity you have nothing.
7.       Friends worth keeping are there for you in your darkest hours, the times when you are hurting, suffering,or simply just going through something challenging even when they have no idea why.These are the friends who don’t always have do say  something they just understand
8.       My parents weren’t lying when they told me growing up that money doesn’t grow on trees.
9.       Sometimes the unplanned, the accidents, the mistakes are some of the best things that could happen to you.
10.   My husband and my kids are my life and I never thought sooo much love was physically possible.

Top ten things I could not live without
1.       My husband and kids
2.       My Camera
3.       Flip flops
4.       Music
5.       Coffee/’bucks
6.       Ice cream
7.       My wedding ring
8.       Mascara
9.       Anitbactirial
10.   Small notebook /pen…I can’t live without my lists(HAHA obviously)
25 Things about me
1.        I  Live for routine, often difficult as an Army wife, but I’m obsessed with routine and order.
2.        I am obsessed with the color pink, dangerous as a mother of a little girl.
3.       When I  think no one is looking I love to sing at the top of my lungs and Dance like a fool.
4.       I love to play my music loud, but I absolutely hate when I have to listen to the radio bc I HATE commercials with buzz kill.
5.        I will wear my favorite pair of jeans as many times as I can get away with before people start to notice.
6.       I’m pretty sure we’re done having babies.However whenever I see a newborn, or a pregnant lady my ovaries go into hyper drive and make want to instantly be pregnant. Then I quickly realize the whole labor and delivery part, the getting fat part, and then trying to get rid of the fat part and, I’m back to realityJ
7.       I love to take photos. In fact I would love to one day have my own little side job of free lancing photography taking pictures at weddings, and portraits of kids,babies and families. However, I am so involved in my pictures and love everything about them(it’s how I see the world)That I’m scared to put myself out there in fear of rejection.(Kinda of contradictory concepts I know)
8.       I’m really really afraid of rejection
9.        I don’t like to cry in front of people. In fact I can safely say my mother and my husband are the only people besides maybe my brothers who have REALLY seen me cry.(see pet peeve 10)
10.   I am slightly OCD. I can walk into a room/building and think of all the germ infested places. Example, I  cannot use a dishcloth more than once to clean something or one rag for multiple surfaces for that matter(just spreading icky germs from one place to another).  I don’t like to touch the toilet handle without tp in public restrooms, and yes folks I hover in port a potties.
11.   I am very particular about my kids’ care. I have a hard time leaving my kids for very long.  I am very scared of the concept of daycare.(FACT: only 1 out of 3 child care facilities is ever inspected!!!)
12.    I hate painting my fingernails because I don’t like chipped fingernails, it looks so trailer park(please note I have chipped fingernails as we speak haha).
13.    I believe  some holidays deserve to be celebrated whole heartly: Birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Fourth of July, Halloween(sometimes), and  Anniversaries
14.    I am very afraid  of what the world will be like for our children when they are teens/adults. Perfect example freezing military pay??WTF
15.    I love to just chill, but I prefer to always have something going on that keeps me busy.
16.    I hate going to the doctors (except when I am pregnant). I will let something go as long as I can until I ABSOLUTELY have to go to the doctor.
17.    I love to workout when I’m skinny, but when I’m overweight I HATE IT!! I find it kind of an amusing concept.
18.    I am not above bribing my son. Sometimes it’s the only way to get him to listen to me.
19.    I have many moments that channel on the same level of blond as Jessica simpson. Example: “I don’t think this turkey leg takes much like Turkey”
20.   I  absolutely despise mornings.
21.    I Don’t feel bad that I spend entirely way too much money on things the kids probably don’t really need.
22.   I  believe that life is short. Because of this I overuse “I love you” , shower my kids in Kisses and cherish every moment we have together as a family as sacred and special.
23.    I hate being lost, in fact it kind of makes me panic a little.
24.   I am extreme. Very all or nothing type.
25.    I am a sentimental pack rat. I still have every corsage I ever received, my driver’s permit, all my cheerleading uniforms, my college acceptance letter and even the pay stub from my first paycheck.
Weird quirks I've Developed:
1. I only like to drink water if it's cold
2. I hate when my food touches
3. I love ketchup on my eggs
4. I clean my ears like almost every day
5.I think warm coffee sucks unless you can drink it before it's cold
6. Milk sucks
7. I take time outs in the bathroom---Mommy time outs for even just 5 minutes
8. I take almost scalding hot showers
9. I don't like socks
10. I pack household goods in our clothing